Scottish Demons Write Poetry
Friday, December 13, 2013
Painful
The poetry open mic reading at Kieran’s pub felt
like watching a bike slide across the ice and the rider, bloody and mangled,
begin to struggle to their feet only to have an SUV pulverize them. The first poem started out travelling smoothly,
but it went too far, drove a little too fast and subsequently crashed in the
middle of its track across the road. The
concept of the first poem intrigued me, taking Poe’s The Raven but instead creating a humorous, modern, and erotic poem. The rhythm and meter followed that of Poe’s
work, forming an interestingly patterned and flowing poem. However, I found the poem took its sexual
theme to an extreme, perhaps for shock value or because the author couldn’t
think of any other rhymes. This caused
it to become uncomfortable, not only for me, who feels awkward easily, but for
most of the people in that room. The
bike had hit an icy patch, but it still had an opportunity to save itself
before it wiped out. The next poem does
not merit classification as such. A man
stood before a regretfully open mic and ranted.
Unfortunately, open mics do not have rules in place for the revoking of
poetry rights, something new I learned that night. If terrible, distressingly illiterate writers
wish to speak for five, or tragically, ten minutes, they cannot be stopped. The bike had slipped into a tangled mess that
nobody wants to witness, but the watcher cannot avert their eyes. The night ended with a long prose poem that
bordered significantly on the side of story.
The poem captured my attention with hopeful potential. I believed for a moment this bike could still
drive away, and took the time to appreciate the cozy, book filled room, the
dark wood implying a severity and competency that none of the poems so far had encompassed. I sipped on the lemonade I ordered because
the reading took place in a bar. My
personal experience, sitting on a cushioned bench, enjoying my lemonade with
crunchable and properly bit sized ice, found no issue, but the discomfort came
from sympathetic embarrassment.
Witnessing a room full of one speaker, crashing in slow motion, while
the rest of the onlookers cringe in their shared distress did not live up to my
idea of a quiet, sincere and intellectual poetry evening as envisioned when I
entered the library-esque back room of this polite little pub. Suffice to say, the last story-poem suddenly
turned cliché and difficult to follow, as the SUV of poetry standards leered
above the floundering reading and drove straight over it, similar to the fate
of the endearing puppy in the final poem.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Lies
The
seductive simplicity
Appeals
to the practical,
The
insignificance, how can it be wrong
If
it matters so little, the honey coated
Words
wrapped neatly in smooth silver,
Pleasantly
crinkled paper, presented
On
a platter, delivering exactly
The
truth they want, how is it harmful
To
provide the harmonious, hoped for
Response,
no need to complicate
With
dissident complaints,
After
all, the talent to deliver
These
candies perfectly wrapped
With
anecdotal details, the flavor
Personalized
for each of us,
Some
prefer white, petty, innocent,
They
say it’s not healthy, but
The
indulgence tastes as sweet
As
chocolate, smooth, innocuous,
Sates
your hunger, and you’re good
At
it, not just any store bought,
Not
everyone provides such
Polite
service, smiles innocently,
You
know you want to hear these
Well
crafted, thoughtful, homemade
Lies,
sometimes, there is an
Aftertaste,
but if you try just
One more, it goes
away.
Grandmothers
The room filled in your name, bustling
children, grandchildren,
Their fast conversations vivacious
crescendos, but your presence
Barely sustains, it seems as if you take
less space with each rattling
Breath, you leave early and the
bubbling, roiling energy reclaims
The vacancy in seconds, after you
gingerly bestow a present with
Crooked claw hands, but a shaking fumble
later, the box bends
On thick carpet and maroon blood
blossoms below your transparent
Skin, ghost skin, crinkled over
darkening pools, almost a surreal
Memory already, like the other
grandmother, of whom my impressions lie
Foggy with the wear of time, pulling
mere reflections from the surface
Of a once sea, acrid perfume of
cigarettes, curiously stiff hair,
Soft eyes, overlarge as my father’s,
staring out from a startling
Photograph, this woman I never consider,
long packed into stuffy
Attics of ancient memories like the
corroded silver jewelry eagerly
Snatched from drawers she no longer
needed, soon forgotten by chaotic
Children, now of all places I see that
face alongside the other
Grandmother, ironically among a
celebration of age, yet the aged
Here shocks me with fragility, the
resounding fall of the tightly wrapped
Gift calling attention to twisted
fingers, the outlines of meager bones,
Hollow bones, mirroring the traces of
thickening joints and spider hands
Of my mother, the nonlinear curve of my
own pinky, as thin below supple
Skin so unlike my parchment genetic
destiny, and now, holding
Ice on her lurid bruise growing like
fungus, vainly trying to stem
This burgeoning weakness, I remember the
other, unlined face that never
Will appear at its own eightieth
birthday party but smiles jauntily from
The muted photograph with
a permanent fortitude, unchanging youth.
Weakness
You
offered
Your
sympathy, supersaturated syrup,
Poison
to flesh imbued over years
With
self reliance, self dependence, self
Pity,
so if I cringe
At
the self inflicted idea
That
I am somehow weaker, that I cannot
Fix
my own problems without salt stains
Down
wet cheeks, I’m sorry, thank you
For
asking but I will recover, I will not make this mistake again,
I
cannot be another girl begging for help from stronger men,
As
my body betrays me, the one that shakes
With
surprised fear while you keep walking,
The
treasonous weakness of my skin amongst the cold,
Submitting
to the elements, or sordid exhaustion,
I
cannot prevent these involuntary
Reactions
that destroy cautiously created
Independence,
the way I cannot reach
My
sparring partner, practicing karate with
A
man six feet two, I take an extra step, punch
With
inconsequential force, the teacher nods assent,
My
incomparable strength
Is
not my fault,
It’s in my nature.
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Final Project Proposal
I would like to create a single craft book with illustrations of about 15 to 20 of my poems. I will not center on a common theme but work currently on more poems with a narrative, descriptive feel. I will plan on placing my book in a public location, perhaps a coffee shop.
Opossum
A barely perceptible thud
Jarring me more than its size merits,
The searing second image, two glossy eyes
Ghostly white in unforgiving headlights,
Scrutinizing the silent passenger who sits,
Stares back for this heartbeat but next finds
No eyes staring back, gone in an illustrious,
Imagined second, now the idea of surreal
Intimacy haunts, the specter twisted under
Wheels, waiting in sticky blood for the next car
To maul already matted fur, this car, hurtling
Murder weapon has long passed, no marks,
Not even a stain of that crimson life I saw
So vividly in the rearview mirror, verifying
That opossum were ever there, ever stared,
Ever died in the moonlit road to Iowa,
I checked the merciless metal, but nothing
Was left, so unlike the brutal screeching,
Scratching impact of reckless humans seeking
Insurance scam payouts, the greed leaving behind
Broken metal, scarred side doors, angry shouts,
A thud reverberating, but here along the quiet
Highway a white, silent creature strays too far
Into the unstoppable path of another violent
Car, slips under, and we keep driving.
Saturday, November 9, 2013
Melody
Close your eyes, the music will still play
It leaves your fingers to become surreal company,
Distinguished entity to join your lonesome hands
Connected to smooth machines of mystical ability,
Who created this perfect formulation, who decided
They could bend the trees into sound that pleases,
Almost deity, the physicality of this transformation
From an obscure language across creased pages
Into human flesh that surprises itself with each
Melody emerging, the tangible portrait of identity,
I have seen the numbers, mathematical proofs,
Neuroscience explanation of the fascination simple
Notes compel within our wired heads, and yet
An essence incontrovertible, unnamable emerges
From the fluttering cocoon of my dancing bow,
Why else would I set down the phone describing
What is irrevocably lost to sit down before
inanimate
Keys and play the first melody I remember, this
song,
Springing from me as if cued as messenger, the act
of
Creating draws me back into humanity, into a
peace
Of listening, letting this fantastical creature
comfort me,
Haunting ghosts of imagination, when one note
vibrates
We can hear the harmonic chords, the invisible
presence
Of sequences falling into place, the periodic waves
Deceiving brains into believing an excess noise,
invaluable
In this world of excess noise, I find words
unnecessary,
Because I can envision infinite, self realized
expressions
Within this peculiar cacophony of unknown reality,
Speaking inaudible secrets of unequaled capacity, Chomsky
Would find, I think, this wordless language lies as
inherent
In our nature as vocalization, the personification
Of ancient harmony, constant in inconstancy, I
cannot
Fathom what you hear, but I hear compassion,
silence,
A universal will to share the possibilities of this,
of any melody.
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